Do I Dare?


So this question all starts when I had someone close to me tell me this wondrous dream that sparked so much creativity into me that I felt like I was about to burst. It is a story that would be a post apocalyptic world where science looks to new ways to try to save the dying earth by unconventional methods, magic. At least to me this sounds like an amazing story and one that I could have a lot of fun pushing myself to write since it is unlike my normal story style. And because of this I have been really itching to start it. However then I fear that my current project I have been so diligently working on will get left in the dust and become yet another story that I have never finished. Which I will be honest; it is a pretty lengthy list. I don’t want to be one of those people that constantly start writing projects but then abandon them due to another story. I have wanted to actually complete the whole process, from start to finish again instead pushing stories aside for different things.

This is my dilemma of do I dare? I love the currently story I am working on. It has so much potential, so much greatness and real character development and I feel the first real strong piece I have written so far. Or at least that is what I believe, but the problem is so do most of the stories I write. I always tell myself oh I just writing my ideas out and I will come back to that original story I was working on but never seem to do. It isn’t that I really truly don’t mean to go back to them, because from the bottom of my heart I do. I have this more than one project in mind when I say that too. And maybe someday I will. However, I haven’t yet. And that is now the biggest problem I have.

So now bringing us back to the original question that I asked: Do I dare? Do I dare start another project? At least writing some scenes down as they pop into my head and work my very hardest to stay on target to my current project. And to be clear the current project I am working on is more than half way finished at this point. Or do I just have the idea in my little notebook I carry around with me where ever I go and hope to goodness sake that I don’t forget all the wonderful ideas that pop into my head and when I finish my current project begin diving into the story that awaits me?

I know the correct answer. I really do but it is one of those stages where I am afraid of not completing yet another thing that I am prepared to do something drastic. This is my problem and this is my question. Do I dare?


What Words Count?


What words really count when you are counting? I have been thinking a lot about this exactly question lately. I hear some people include their blog in their daily word count goals and others think that a blog is something extra and not to be counted in what you have “written” for the day. I personally find that it can go both ways. So what one is wrong and what one is right?
Until  today I will admit, I was leaning to the side that you shouldn’t count what you have written for your blog as part of your daily writing. It should be included in something completely different. It is like an additional project that really isn’t considered “writing” but rather a way to express yourself and something to get your name known. You have daily writing goals to help make your current project keeps running, to make sure that it continues and so you don’t write useless words down just to make the word count but rather to increase the story value. Your daily word goals should be to get your projects finished. To get them to the end goal of being finished and then some day hopefully published rather than adding other projects to your plate. Your goals should be specific and include only your current pending projects instead of including that of side projects like a blog, or journal. I see no fault in this logic but as of late, especially today, I have been leaning in the other direction.
I have been leaning towards the thought process that writing a blog is helping actually your writing and so it  should count towards your daily word count goal (as long as that goal is not for a specific project like write 250 words towards this project). And to be honest, I have written this exact same blog so many different times (honestly it feels like hundreds by now) but  pushing the blogs are not writing and never publishing them. Why? I honestly don’t know.  Maybe it was because part of me, the deeper part of me found that I was not being honest with myself. However then it suddenly clicked. This thought process that it really was helping your writing.  When you write a blog you are making yourself think. Your creative muse is hard at work trying to come up with something to write that will connect you more with your viewers, your readers. The people you want to convince to be your fan, to cheer for you along the way (and hopefully not just family members and close friends). Once they are your fan, it will help you in the long run. Once you have finally published a book (or have done so already,) it will help you to sell said book and make your fans tell everyone about your amazing new creation.  It is a great way to get your work public and your showing off to everyone what a great writer you are but not just that. It also shows your fans that you are a real person with tangibility. I honestly think that is what helps most famous authors today. They are starting to seem more like real people and so people want to hear more from them, to see more from them.

But it isn’t just about your fans. Blogging is a way to keep your writing mind keep working even when you have to have a  little break from the hard sticky spot in your current work in progress. It is a way to let your mind reboot in a sense while still making progress with your ultimate goal. Just keep writing. It is a way to take a step back and see your writing almost from an outside perspective or to see your life in a way that could help out your story, your own writings.

As writers, I believe our ultimate goal is to spark creativity into a person who is reading our work. Our art. The thing we have been slaving over for so long until our foreheads bled onto paper (says a fellow writer/twitter/blogger, Mike Whitacre – find more about him on his blog and those thoughts became reality. We have slaved over our work. What better way to get our work out there than some one on one personalized blogging to let our readers know exactly who we are. I think it is important to blog and more so than ever because of this reason but also because it gives your mind that much needed break from writing the same thing day in and day out. Your mind gets tired and sometimes it needs little vacations to as I said before, reboot.

One reason why I honestly think part of me didn’t blog as much (not like one blog post fixes it) is because I saw it as another task to do instead of it  completing the harmony from the book I am currently writing and the process from when it becomes finished. Instead of it taking away from writing other things such as my project it is allowing me to get into the frame of mind to continue to work on it. To refresh my mind from the long days and roadblocks I have been facing on the computer trying to continue my beloved story and making it just that, beloved again to me. I also think writing a blog should be to strengthen my skills as a writer and to put thought to paper instead of being as another chore to do. Any writing as long as you are purposefully trying to better yourself should count as reaching a writing goal. Or at least that is my thoughts on this issue.

So now, at the end of the day, I think writing part of your blog should be counted towards your daily writing goal of overall writing (but not like I said above towards a different project goal). But I would love to hear what you think. Am I thinking logically or just bat-shit crazy?

Have a wonderful day everyone. Until the next time. 🙂

Valentine’s Day Love


Today I read a great blog by L.K. Hamilton and I loved every minute it. It was about Real Love (and that is what it was titled too). If you haven’t read it I suggest you do. I for one am not going to go in depth about what it says but its ideas got me thinking. 

Now this is partially based of real life and partially on writing. Love isn’t something that you can make perfect. Look at all the real love stories, fairy tales based on love, and just real life. Real love can hurt. It can sometimes feels like getting stabbed in the gut and it being twisted around and around until you just can’t take the pain anymore. Granted that is usually the most painful part of love and if that is your entire love you need help and ASAP. (and so does your character if it is in writing!) Love isn’t all flowers and chocolates like Valentines Day would usually like us to believe. It has painful parts too. Granted, one can hope that those painful parts aren’t the majority of your love, because again see above about ASAP. 

Real Love is about the ups and downs, the roller coaster ride of everything in between. And I think in a lot of circumstances books and real people forget that. So many people, especially with the new age dating sites, have this ideal of love as the shining knight riding in on his horse and being everything in your dreams. I am to tell you that would be darn boring. And honestly it makes a story boring. I have read books where the romance in it has been picture perfect and I am left with a dry taste in my mouth. Real life, real love is not a perfect story. My hint, (to myself as well) is to remember the way real love is. It is the fights, it is the making up, it is the boring silences, being in two different rooms doing two different things, but it is also about snuggling up with them at night before bed and knowing you are safe and loved. It is about eating dinner together, even if it is burnt and blah. Love is everything life is. It is all the unexpected moments. It is aggravation about not getting your way, the guilt when you realize you are wrong about a fight. The awkward apology. It is about the flowers someone surprises you with. It is about the hug and kiss you give them when they get home. 

Love, at least in my experience with it, is amazing. It is magical. It surpasses everything else you have ever felt. However, it doesn’t always. Sometimes it is just every day life, with content feelings. Remember this. I need to remember this when I write. You don’t want your story, especially if it has love in it, to seem cliche, to see story board. You want it to seem real. So remember the moments you have felt love. Remember it and savor it and write it. 

Happy Valentines Everyone and may your life and stories be filled with love. 

Back Up and Running!


I know I know. This blog needs more updating, I need to keep more on top of articles and what not. First off let me just give you one tiny excuse. WordPress was not working for me.  At all. I would log in every day and to no avail every day (besides today and hopefully going forward) and all I got was a blank screen of FAIL! It would load all the text and nothing else so now I am back. And hopefully *Fingers crossed* more regularly.

At least one good thing that has happened since this blog had temporarily went down and that is I got a lot more writing done. I am in a good place right now with my Work In Progress. Granted it has a LOOOOONG way to go and has a lot of editing that needs to be done it is getting someplace and someplace where I might be able to actually finish it. At the same time I think I could easily make this into a series if need be. I am loving my characters, I am loving the struggles they are going through. Now I just need to make myself better as a writer to take this story to the level I would love for it to be. But that is what learning is all about isn’t it?

I am actually starting to feel more confident in my writing and getting better by the page. I am getting back into the groove, which is wonderful. I was rereading some older pages in my current project and just wanted to cut and slash and change so much. I resisted for the most part because I want to finish the entire thing first before I rip it to shreds and never finish. Ah yes she does have a plan even though her inner perfectionist is screaming at her to go back and fix all those mistakes she saw.

Overall though I think that it is going to a good place and although I doubt this will be a book that I will have published it is getting me in the right place where I need to be going. As they say each book you should strive to get better and that is what I plan on doing. I wrote my first book in middle school/high school. Was it any good! HECK NO! Did I think it was ? HECK YES! But now I can see where I needed to grow and where I still need to grow. Again it is all about growth and I think I am finally achieving that.

Well anyways since that was like three different run on subjects all in one blog I think I shall call it a night and try to come back to you all tomorrow!

Have a great one everyone. Until next time.

Take the Blinders Off


I am sitting here at work, thinking. Thinking of social media and how many young people post their life’s troubles for the world to see expecting some kind of response. How many young people post on Twitter and facebook about how their life sucks and how many times has it been in the news that they would even post things about how they were going to commit suicide or someone in their life was harming them in ways no person should ever be harmed. This topic really got me thinking, if I posted on Twitter or Facebook that I was about to do those things or those things were being done to me would anyone listen? And no I am not thinking of doing those things nor have bad things being done to me. It is just a thought across my brain that I can’t help but think of. If I wrote “I am going to jump off a bridge tonight.” Would someone say a kind word to me or ask me what is wrong? Would anyone call the police or reach out to get me help? So many of the distraught out there look to the world in the internet as a place of friends and people who will listen but so many cases when it really matters no one really does listen.

I had planned on writing a blog on writing and New Year’s resolutions but when I started thinking of this topic it really stuck in my mind and would not get out until I started to write it out. What if community was not a thing of the past and when we say “The Writer’s Community” or whatever other web community you may be in that it really becomes a community again. Something we can share in our “real lives,” to the people who live around us day to day. What if we brought back the caring and neighborly love that used to thrive in this country and around the world. What if people did not wear their blinders to the bad things that are going on in the world around them and actually open their eyes and ears.

I honestly believe that if this is done 2012 will be the best year this world has ever seen. I have decided to take blinders off, will you?

Synopsis – My Own Progress


First off I will admit I am horrible at synopsis. I tend to try to way over simplify them for some reason and cause them to be a boring blah of words strung together. Not going to get too many readers wanting to read my book huh? Nope, not a chance. So today I decided to try again at re-writing the synopsis for my newest book that I am writing this year for NaNoWriMo. So I am going to show you exactly how I progressed today.


First Attempt

Soifra Eileen is a girl who finds herself stuck in a past she is trying to fun away from. Lord Benson is trying to find her again and claim her again for himself and if he does the empire around Soifra will be forced to continue to be a world of where the poor starve and the nobility gets more powerful.

Second Attempt

Soifra Eileen, a girl barely over her seventeeth birthday finds herself in the abusive hands of the one person who was suppose to protect her. She is left with no other choice but to flee his death tight grasp and try to make a new life for herself away from the houses of the nobles. However when Soifra does escape she finds that it is a noble life she must be destined for. She has to make the empire around her more in the image of what the goddess who spoke to her wants, of peace instead of how the power-hungry nobles that now run it, for power and wealth.

Together with Ryaen, a war criminal who has stayed out the grasps of the nobles for long strive to change the empire into something they both believe in. Together they will race against the clock and the seasons to make sure that the empire in indeed an image of hope instead of despair.

Third Attempt

Soifra Eileen, a Sivene Princess from the land of the North, was taken into protected custody when she was a small child however when she approached her seventeenth birthday she finds that the one who was bound to protect her was the one who was the one who was the most damaging. After her protectors true nature was shown Soifra fled hoping to leave the life of abuse behind her with that of the noble houses. However when she comes across Aduialhach, the city of Evening Flame, she realized that no matter where she ran the abuse was everywhere and she had to do something to stop it.

Ryaen of Lovingworth was a war criminal trying to find his way into the future and fix the one that he sees in front of him. When he comes across a woman alone in the forest, appearing to be running from her past as well he pledges to himself to help her. When he finds out that she is actually a member of a rare race of magical beings called the Sivene he knows fate has finally came in and handed him a winning hand.

Together they try to overcome the corrupted noble houses of the city of Aduialhach and free the people of the city from the unnecessary starvation and living conditions and branch out to have the kind hand of the Sivene people of their history to step back into place not just over this city but over all of the Elonn. Together, Ryaen and Soifra wish to help the people of Elonn be free from tyranny and back into a realm of peace.

So far I have only done three attempts but I think each time they have clearly improved. Of course I am not nearly done but what I found helped was to actually do this step and write first attempt, second, ect so that I could see where exactly I was going wrong and how I could add more details to the story with still leaving the reader wanting to find out what happens and pick up the book.
I would love to hear your thoughts on my progress so far! Always have room to improve!
Until next time have a wonderful time! (and good luck fellow NaNoWriMo-ers)

The Joys of Editing


I may be an odd ball but I just have to admit. I love editing. I love it almost as much as I love writing. I love editing my own work especially, it gets my creative juices flowing even more so than before, about great new ideas and character development as I plug away at making what I am working as perfect as I can get it. It makes me what to write more and more and more. I usually edit a lot slower than I write of course, rereading the same paragraph sometimes a hundred times or more just to get the wording to say exactly what I want it to say. I am currently editing my Work In Progress and I was really good about waiting until I had 36 page (double spaces so say what you will) before even beginning to edit and man was that a challenge. I did it mostly because I had hit a road block in my writing. I mean I was chugging along writing the story per the detailed outline I made but the passion just was not there to stay up to the late hours of the night, needing to finish the next scene as I had been before. I find even though I have only really edited the first few pages (roughly on the 4th page as I write this blog) I find my passion growing again. The fire in my gut of inspiration and the overwhelming need to just write and write all day is coming back upon me. (Thank you muse!)

I know some writers say you should not edit until the very end of writing your first draft, because it is just that the first draft. It is going to be rough, it is going to be edgy it is going to be honestly somewhat bad. And I do get that, and that is why I was pushing myself to wait to edit for so long, but with my writing style and how my inspiration works I see something I wrote days or weeks ago again and it is witty and perfect and go AHA! I can do this. I am a good writer, and it sparks more confidence in myself and makes me want to continue.

So I guess what I am saying is that it is okay to stop and edit. It is okay to sit back and admire your own work and add upon it. I think for me editing helps me remember small details to add in the story later. Example, yesterday I was editing the very first page of my current project and I was reminded that I needed to put in why she was even away from her horse in the forest to begin with. Why was she traipsing alone in a dark forest without even the companion of her horse. The reader does not know and if it made me think of the question I am sure some future reader (if I only get so lucky) would probably ask the same question. It makes sure that you cover your loose ends before you have so many loose ends that your book isn’t flushed out, doesn’t have the round-ness of completion.

Well these are my thoughts, I would love to hear what you all have to say. So until next time, have a wonderful day!