Yesterday, I sat down at my computer and wrote. I have been doing this on and off for years. My blog is not an accurate representation of how much I write because honestly I find I am not the blogging sort. Well, I am in spurts but I like to only blog when I feel called to and not as a mandatory thing. Anyways, back to my original point.
I was writing yesterday. Sitting at my computer, typing away at a very emotional scene. It was not so much emotional on paper as it was within my own being. I wanted to cry, I wanted to break down and stop writing but I continued forth, and proudly without a tear draining from my eye. I write very much from experiences, from my own emotions and from what is in my life (with of course twists and fantasy flair.) I take inspiration from the pain, the happiness, the sadness, the love. From it all. Sometimes this causes me to fear writing. Fear making me face reality and the imaginary. Fear of making me deal with things I do not what to deal with. This has caused me to take breaks from writing. Longer than I wish to admit and shorter than sometimes warrants to push those emotions and personal issues aside.
By no means do I have a bad life. Quiet the opposite. I have a wonderful life and I love almost every moment of it but there are always things in people’s lives that haunt them, no matter how peaceful and happy their life might be. I take this and I use it. I think a lot of writers do, or should. I feel as that emotional connection with their writings, their worlds, and what is in side them makes stories more believable, more sincere. I might not have the best grammar, or spelling, or writing technique, but those are all things I can work to improve on everyday. The emotional content of writing; that I feel as though that is really something you cannot learn. Something that sparks a writer to write. Not to create world, yes that is part of it, but to explore their own self. To find themselves through these worlds and deal with issues that somethings they just cannot deal with in real life. Sometimes problems are imaginary, sometimes problems are real but that doesn’t mean that they cannot be worked out on paper (or a computer screen as it might be)
This my emotional rant for today. My way of expressing what writing is to me. I see so many quotes of I write because like breathing I cannot live without it (paraphrasing) and I think that is true. At least it is for some of us. I write because I have to and because I love to.
So this question all starts when I had someone close to me tell me this wondrous dream that sparked so much creativity into me that I felt like I was about to burst. It is a story that would be a post apocalyptic world where science looks to new ways to try to save the dying earth by unconventional methods, magic. At least to me this sounds like an amazing story and one that I could have a lot of fun pushing myself to write since it is unlike my normal story style. And because of this I have been really itching to start it. However then I fear that my current project I have been so diligently working on will get left in the dust and become yet another story that I have never finished. Which I will be honest; it is a pretty lengthy list. I don’t want to be one of those people that constantly start writing projects but then abandon them due to another story. I have wanted to actually complete the whole process, from start to finish again instead pushing stories aside for different things.
This is my dilemma of do I dare? I love the currently story I am working on. It has so much potential, so much greatness and real character development and I feel the first real strong piece I have written so far. Or at least that is what I believe, but the problem is so do most of the stories I write. I always tell myself oh I just writing my ideas out and I will come back to that original story I was working on but never seem to do. It isn’t that I really truly don’t mean to go back to them, because from the bottom of my heart I do. I have this more than one project in mind when I say that too. And maybe someday I will. However, I haven’t yet. And that is now the biggest problem I have.
So now bringing us back to the original question that I asked: Do I dare? Do I dare start another project? At least writing some scenes down as they pop into my head and work my very hardest to stay on target to my current project. And to be clear the current project I am working on is more than half way finished at this point. Or do I just have the idea in my little notebook I carry around with me where ever I go and hope to goodness sake that I don’t forget all the wonderful ideas that pop into my head and when I finish my current project begin diving into the story that awaits me?
I know the correct answer. I really do but it is one of those stages where I am afraid of not completing yet another thing that I am prepared to do something drastic. This is my problem and this is my question. Do I dare?
First off I will admit I am horrible at synopsis. I tend to try to way over simplify them for some reason and cause them to be a boring blah of words strung together. Not going to get too many readers wanting to read my book huh? Nope, not a chance. So today I decided to try again at re-writing the synopsis for my newest book that I am writing this year for NaNoWriMo. So I am going to show you exactly how I progressed today.
Soifra Eileen is a girl who finds herself stuck in a past she is trying to fun away from. Lord Benson is trying to find her again and claim her again for himself and if he does the empire around Soifra will be forced to continue to be a world of where the poor starve and the nobility gets more powerful.
Soifra Eileen, a girl barely over her seventeeth birthday finds herself in the abusive hands of the one person who was suppose to protect her. She is left with no other choice but to flee his death tight grasp and try to make a new life for herself away from the houses of the nobles. However when Soifra does escape she finds that it is a noble life she must be destined for. She has to make the empire around her more in the image of what the goddess who spoke to her wants, of peace instead of how the power-hungry nobles that now run it, for power and wealth.
Together with Ryaen, a war criminal who has stayed out the grasps of the nobles for long strive to change the empire into something they both believe in. Together they will race against the clock and the seasons to make sure that the empire in indeed an image of hope instead of despair.
Soifra Eileen, a Sivene Princess from the land of the North, was taken into protected custody when she was a small child however when she approached her seventeenth birthday she finds that the one who was bound to protect her was the one who was the one who was the most damaging. After her protectors true nature was shown Soifra fled hoping to leave the life of abuse behind her with that of the noble houses. However when she comes across Aduialhach, the city of Evening Flame, she realized that no matter where she ran the abuse was everywhere and she had to do something to stop it.
Ryaen of Lovingworth was a war criminal trying to find his way into the future and fix the one that he sees in front of him. When he comes across a woman alone in the forest, appearing to be running from her past as well he pledges to himself to help her. When he finds out that she is actually a member of a rare race of magical beings called the Sivene he knows fate has finally came in and handed him a winning hand.
Together they try to overcome the corrupted noble houses of the city of Aduialhach and free the people of the city from the unnecessary starvation and living conditions and branch out to have the kind hand of the Sivene people of their history to step back into place not just over this city but over all of the Elonn. Together, Ryaen and Soifra wish to help the people of Elonn be free from tyranny and back into a realm of peace.
So far I have only done three attempts but I think each time they have clearly improved. Of course I am not nearly done but what I found helped was to actually do this step and write first attempt, second, ect so that I could see where exactly I was going wrong and how I could add more details to the story with still leaving the reader wanting to find out what happens and pick up the book.
I would love to hear your thoughts on my progress so far! Always have room to improve!
Until next time have a wonderful time! (and good luck fellow NaNoWriMo-ers)
I may be an odd ball but I just have to admit. I love editing. I love it almost as much as I love writing. I love editing my own work especially, it gets my creative juices flowing even more so than before, about great new ideas and character development as I plug away at making what I am working as perfect as I can get it. It makes me what to write more and more and more. I usually edit a lot slower than I write of course, rereading the same paragraph sometimes a hundred times or more just to get the wording to say exactly what I want it to say. I am currently editing my Work In Progress and I was really good about waiting until I had 36 page (double spaces so say what you will) before even beginning to edit and man was that a challenge. I did it mostly because I had hit a road block in my writing. I mean I was chugging along writing the story per the detailed outline I made but the passion just was not there to stay up to the late hours of the night, needing to finish the next scene as I had been before. I find even though I have only really edited the first few pages (roughly on the 4th page as I write this blog) I find my passion growing again. The fire in my gut of inspiration and the overwhelming need to just write and write all day is coming back upon me. (Thank you muse!)
I know some writers say you should not edit until the very end of writing your first draft, because it is just that the first draft. It is going to be rough, it is going to be edgy it is going to be honestly somewhat bad. And I do get that, and that is why I was pushing myself to wait to edit for so long, but with my writing style and how my inspiration works I see something I wrote days or weeks ago again and it is witty and perfect and go AHA! I can do this. I am a good writer, and it sparks more confidence in myself and makes me want to continue.
So I guess what I am saying is that it is okay to stop and edit. It is okay to sit back and admire your own work and add upon it. I think for me editing helps me remember small details to add in the story later. Example, yesterday I was editing the very first page of my current project and I was reminded that I needed to put in why she was even away from her horse in the forest to begin with. Why was she traipsing alone in a dark forest without even the companion of her horse. The reader does not know and if it made me think of the question I am sure some future reader (if I only get so lucky) would probably ask the same question. It makes sure that you cover your loose ends before you have so many loose ends that your book isn’t flushed out, doesn’t have the round-ness of completion.
Well these are my thoughts, I would love to hear what you all have to say. So until next time, have a wonderful day!
I know I have been beyond neglecting my blog for a long while, and especially as an aspiring author there is really no excuse for it. I could give a million and one excuses about why I have not been writing or why my life is so busy but honestly it is because I have not been feeling inspired to write any blog posts. When I come here, daily I will tell you, I sit here with my fingers at my key board and nothing comes. I type up a few sentences and then the backspace button becomes my best friend. It is like the blog that I used strive to at least update with creative mementos is now slowly dying inside of me.
And is a blog really that important in the publishing world? To become that published author as you have always dreamed. For my dying inspiration unfortunately yes. It is seeming like more and more you need more and more to keep your readers and future employers entertained by your prowess and writing abilities. They want to see the ambition to keep your blog updated weekly if not daily, they want to see a twitter feed based on you where you voice your personality so fans can relate to you more easily. I know I personally want all of these things from my favorite authors. Have I too become more greedy of the authors I love but do not put myself to the same standards of effort and work? The answer is simply no. The blog shows the true answer of it which of course would be no. Not at all.
Of course I will continue to try to strive to push myself to think of the next new blog to write on here. Some nice witty advice I learned from my struggles or maybe even post some of my creative stories again. Little short blurbs that pop into my head and drive me crazy while working other stories and cannot possibly fit it in to what I am working on.
So many thoughts and so many ways to do a blog sometimes it boggles my mind, especially since I am relatively new to blogging itself. Maybe these are just new bloggers fears and syndromes and I will get in the habit of writing a new blog maybe everyday. Who knows? So far I think only time will tell.
Well off until next time!
I see many different authors righting about the progress of their novel but I know there are so many different ways to determine how your progress is going. I know some authors use mathematics based on word count and previous writings to know how long their current work is going to be and how far into they are, but then others do it based on number of chapters and others base it on an outline of ideas they want to incorporate into their novel. There is good sides and bad sides to each one of these methods.
With the word count you can use an exact percentage of when you are going to be done and it gives you a good place of what market your book can jump into once you are done. For example, for a romance novel you probably don’t want to be writing something that is 300,000 words, heck most first time authors should not be writing something that long. But if you want to work your way into epics say in fantasy around 100K to 200K words is probably a lot more reasonable and for romance probably around 80,000 words. However, what if your story also ends completely at 80,000 words or you find you need 30,000 words more to complete it? Are you going to sit there at 80,000 words and flush out your story so much that the detail will become overwhelming? or are you going to stop 30,000 words short to keep it within the boundaries of the parameters that you made for yourself, probably not. So even though you use math to try to determine your progress it might not always be accurate.
With doing a chapter number it is pretty much the same with the word count in the way with mathematics. It is still more a math formula for trying to figure out how many chapters you use based on other stories or other books that they have read and similar writing style. However, if you want only 18 chapters but you find that you really need 30 to complete your whole idea are you going to make too jam packed chapters that the story no longer flows or the same problem you wanted 30 chapters but now you only have 18 are you going to make your story more choppy so that it is longer or you have the number of chapters you want. Some novels I read have one page chapters, and that is fine if they have a complete thought, but you don’t want all of your chapters to be that short potentially because you wanted the number of chapters. The problem is basing your count again based on a set number is hard because again it is not always accurate but it is also on both of them judgement of what you want to write. You can have a good judge of how long your novel or novella is going to be without having to set specific boundaries of how many words, and you can determine how many scenes there are going to be.
Again with doing an outline you don’t have the math of really doing how many words you want but you have the view of the progress of the ideas you have on your outline and what you want to incorporate into your story and check them off as you go. It is great because you make sure you get everything you really wanted into the story you are writing but I also know of a lot of people who don’t always write their book based on a strict guideline of an outline. An outline being more fluid and being able to change when you get that moment of inspiration. The ability to change something mid-way through the story to add to more suspense or a different chain of events. If that happens you would have to rework your whole outline, which is fine, if you have also another way to calculate your progress.
Which brings me to my final point, all of these ideas are fine by themselves but all have big flaws within in them. One by itself is just not enough. I believe that to make sure everything works out the best way for your progress is really to use at least two of these methods. I think it is great to have an outline to see your progress and adjust either one according to what you would like your end goal to be. Example being word count and outline, if you get a great idea and want to change your outline you can also adjust the word count to either be smaller or larger to incorporate more things in your story.
Those are my thoughts anyways, and I would love to hear what you do to keep progress of your “Work in Progress.”
Okay I am all set to write. Writing area, check. Surface space organized to perfection, check. Handy dandy netbook, check. Notebooks galore for notes, check. Ample amounts of pens and pencils for taking said notes, check. Pictures of inspiration and creativity around me, check. Music to set the mood, check. Ideas floating around in my head to write what I think is an amazing story, check. Now what?
This is the problem I think a lot of writers, including myself, face from time to time. It could only be for an hour or it could be months so how do you overcome this roadblock to success? I know I have written about this before but to me advice in this category never gets old. Everyone at some point or another always gets writer’s block. So what do you do when you cannot think of how to start your new novel, or even the next scene. I usually do research on character building, or scene development. Reading books on how to make the perfect fantasy story (or whatever genre you are working with), go back and think of back story for the characters I am working with. Even if they are minute characters. A Character blog comes to mind again, with maybe a minor character. Even if you dont’ have it published on the world wide web you can keep a small journal or notebook filled with ideas and memories from those characters. You might even discover something more about a minor character that allows you to find the rope you were looking for to climb over that wall.
However, there are sometimes I think that it is not just writer’s block that makes writers stop doing what they love. I know from experience when you have a bad writing day, say the voice is off like what happened to me yesterday. You get down on yourself, you see all that hard work you did the day before or even hours before and then it seems to be ruined by your current state of progress. Sometimes I can be jiggling my pen trying to think of what to write next and know what I want to say next but don’t have the confidence in myself to actually write it. This too is still writer’s block. But it is not the creativity but it is yourself that is blocking your own work, progress and growth. I know from experience that you could have a great story and then something happens in it, maybe a bad critique from a family member or close friend of your progress, or you find the original voice lost in your mind that you loved so much from the beginning, or it could just be that you stressed with other things going on in your life and you take it out on your abilities to create a wonderful and magical story but it is all the same excuse. You have to know that you are good enough to finish what you love to do, the story you fell in love with. Even if you never get published, and a thousand editors tell you it is not good enough, is that really want matters? No. You should write because you love the feel of the keys being pressed down in a fury because you cannot get the ideas out of your head fast enough, or the sounds of a pen scribbling against a rough piece of paper as you create a short story in a coffee shop. We can dream about finding our books, our hard work, on a book shelf some day but even if you have to get one copy bound and put it on your own bookshelf is that not accomplishment enough? To finish a complete novel and say hey I wrote that. Or even one hundred complete novels, it is a thing to be proud of. So instead of kicking yourself because the voice is off, which you can fix in editing or just erase and start over, do what you love and don’t let the rest of the stuff affect it.